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[12 Aug 2004|04:46pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]

i haven't updated this journal in awhile so i figured i probably should. my bandwidth has been restored today, which means i can return to posting pictures and doing that sort of stuff. i had to wait until the 12th because that's the date that i started my photobucket account on, hence it being the date that bandwitdth resets. but it's back now and that whole problem was resolved, and all's well that ends well.

haven't really taken any new pictures lately. jake's on vacation this weekend, but i think we he gets back i'm gonna have him take some for me. i also plan on submitting some pics to voodoo dollhouse. i've just really been crunched for time, and the whole bandwidth incident really tried my patience.

anyway...just wanted to write a quick lil something. i'm off to see the cure tonight, but stay tuned and hopefully i'll have some new fun stuff soon :D


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pissed off [26 Jul 2004|02:48pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

hi....lemme tell you all about a great new way to really piss me off. exceed my photobucket bandwidth...that's how!! what the fuck are all you perverts out there doing with my pictures?! i looked at my album and it's got 140,000 hits JUST THIS MONTH!!!! none of my pictures are showing up anywhere, and contrary to popular belief i don't just use that album for posting dirty pictures...i have other needed stuff there too.

so....if this continues to be a problem, then i'm gonna move my pictures [all 400+ of them], and i will post them in a manner that doesn't allow people to access all my shit, therefor using up all my bandwidth and making me a very unhappy heidi. RAR!!!

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bom chicka bom bom [17 Jul 2004|09:04pm]
[ mood | silly ]

if you were to be getting a lap-dance/strip-tease, from someone you know and are attracted to in that sense, what do you think the perfect song[s] would be for the occassion??

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voodoo doll?? [13 Jul 2004|03:04pm]
[ mood | curious ]

i need everyone's opinion. i'm thinking of submitting some pics to www.voodoo-dollhouse.com and i want to know what ya'll think. are these girls too out of my league or would i fit in good with them? i think i'm going to have

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i need everyone's opinion. i'm thinking of submitting some pics to www.voodoo-dollhouse.com and i want to know what ya'll think. are these girls too out of my league or would i fit in good with them? i think i'm going to have <lj-user="metallicfatguy"> take some pics of me all sassy style in my garter and fishnets, etc. to submit, but i'm scare of rejection so before i do it, i want some outside opinions.

yey or ney??
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[05 Jul 2004|06:15pm]
[ mood | amused ]

What do your LJ friends REALLY think?
LJ Username
user metallicfatguy
Thinks you are mischievious
user garygetsnolove
Thinks you swing both ways
user xbigjimx
Is secretly watching you sleep
This quiz by waywardpixie - Taken 1696 Times.
New - Help with love and dating!

hahaha bj knows i'm mischevious, erica prolly knows i swing both ways, and if jim is watching me sleep then next time he better climb in bed with me ;)
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stolen from djwickwild [19 Jun 2004|02:33am]
[ mood | drained ]

Spell your first name backwards: idieH
Age: 22
Where do you live: Gary, Indiana, born and raised
Four words that sum you up: silly, outgoing, loud, cute
Wallet: black outside, pink inside
Hairbrush: none...my hair is too short for a brush or comb or anything.
Jewerly worn daily: two toe rings...
Pillow cover: depends on what set of bedding i'm using. right now it's a pink and burgundy and gold india sari type print.
Coffee Cup: my travel mug is clear purple plastic with a black lid
Shoes: hahaha...i'm prolly pushin 100 pairs...
Cologne/Perfume: depends on my mood...most often either egyptian goddess oil or lovespell body spray
Lotion: something yummy from either bath and body works or victoria's secret.
Piercings: the only one i wear is my upper left ear
Clothing you're wearing now: new pjs my mummy bought me today...pink teeshirt with daisies on it, matching yellow shorts with pink polka dots

Mixed Questions

Wishing: that today hadn't gone so horribly wrong.
After this: sleep prolly...i'm mentally exhausted.
Talking to: BJ <3
Eating: i just ate low-carb pecan clusters....drinking diet a&w rootbeer
Fetishes: bondage, sex toys, lace, leather, blindfolds, etc.
Some of your fav. movies: high fidelity, clockwork orange, chasing amy, clerks, playing mona lisa, down with love, secretary, better than chocolate, but i'm a cheerleader, rocky horror picture show, etc.
Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming months: BJ and Meg coming to chicago.
Last thing you ate: low carb pecan clusters
If you could have any animal as a pet what would it be: an itty bitty doggie...that i could carry around in my purse.
3 cities you wouldn't mind re-locating to: madison wisconsin, portland oregon, seattle washington
Some of your favorite foods: anything on the grill, seafood, steamed veggies
Something you wish you could understand better: a foreign language
Miss someone you haven't seen in a long time: ummm....yea. i miss my sister a lot. i haven't seen her since january.

Do you...?

Like candles: love 'em
Like incense: love 'em
Believe in love: yes i do
Believe in soulmates: yea...something like that
Believe in love at first sight: nope
Believe in forgiveness: too much so prolly
Want to get married: someday
Want to have kids: 1...2 at the most.
Believe you know the person you'll marry: yea i think so

In the last 24 hrs. have you...?

Cried? yes-too much
Gotten sick? nope
Sang? in the car yea
Ate? yup
Been kissed? nope
Felt stupid? yea...
Wanted to tell someone you loved them, but didn't? yea...i almost said it when we hung up on the phone </3>Social Life </u>
Best Girl friends: Magdalene, Rebecka
Best Guy friends: Jake, BJ
Boyfriend/Girlfriend: don't have one
If none, current dating partner: don't have one
Hobbies? watching movies, playing video games, wasting time online
Are you the center of attention or the wallflower? i'm the center of attention
Car you drive? my little lemon probe. it's such a piece of crap =\
Would you rather be with friends or on a date? neither right now
Job? i need one =\
Attend Church? nope...that might do me some good though
Like being around people? not today i don't...


Have you known the longest? mara
Do you ague with the most? umm...i dunno. i don't argue much
Who is the most trustworthy? magdalene
Do you always get along with? magdalene
Who makes you laugh the most? rebecka
Who has the coolest parents? me
Who has the coolest siblings? rebecka
Who is the most blunt? me
Is the smartest? me and rebecka


Who is your role model? Tori Amos
Ever liked someone you had no chance with? of course....who hasn't?
Ever lied to your best friend? not intentionally or over something major
Ever wanted to get revenge on someone b/c they hurt you? ea...i'm vindictive like that
Cried over the opposite sex? of course
Have a certain 'type' of person you go after? yea...i like scruffy chubby boys
Rather be dumped or dumper? dumper...just cause i don't get to be on that side often
Rather have a relationship or a hook-up? relationship
What's your favorite part of your physical appearance? my face in general
What is your favorite part of your emotional being? my outgoing personality.
Are you happy with yourself? most of the time
Are you happy with your life? it could be worse
If you could change one thing what would it be? my financial situation

Have you...

Fallen for your best friend? nope...but i'm best friends with someone i've fallen for
Been rejected? of course
Been in love? yea </3>Who was the last person...

You touched? myself hahaha
You talked to? jake
You instant messaged? BJ
You have sex with? ick...Todd...for the last time. i'm done with that.
You yelled at? mara
You laughed at? BJ
Who broke your heart? jake </3>Do you...</u>

Color your hair? just redid it blue today
Have tattoos? just a few....
Own a web cam? nope
Own a thong? a thong...meaning just one?? hahahhahaha try like 293742834923 :D i love thongs...
Ever get off the damn computer? sometimes
Habla espanol? no
Quack? nope...i sure dont

Have you / do you / are you...

Stolen anything? i used to all the time. not anymore
Smoke? i have before....i only smoke pot now though
Obsessive? not really
Compulsive? i can be
Obsessive Compulsive? sometimes
Panic? nope
Anxiety? nah
Depressive? i'm manic depressive...it's a little different than just regular depression
Suicidal? not anymore
Obsessed with Hate? nope...i'm too nice for that
Dream of mutilated bodies, blood, death, and gore? only after watching house of 1000 corpses :D great flick

Here we go...

Like your name? yup
Named after someone? nope
Do you wish on stars? sometimes
Which finger is your favorite? the 3 in the middle...they do wonders in my...nevermind
When did you last cry? like 30 minutes ago
Do you like your handwriting? yea i have teacher handwriting hahaha
Who do you admire? tori amos
What is your favorite animal? my cat abby
Are you a daredevil? not really
Do looks matter? sad but true, yes...looks matter

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camwhoring a lil [17 Jun 2004|12:24am]
[ mood | silly ]

i picked up a roll of flim today and thought i'd share some pics of my technicolour hair hahaha. i think i'm gonna go purple next...or maybe green ::shrug:: anyway...here's some pics. sorry they're big but i don't feel like battling with PSP to resize them.

x-posted here and there...

heidi and her amazing technicolour hairCollapse )

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Water [10 Jun 2004|01:09am]
[ mood | horny ]

One of my LJ friends asked me tonight what really turns me on. We were having a conversation about do I like this, do I like that, etc. And then he asked me what I really liked, hence the prior entry about bondage. Bondage in general is a huge fetish of mine. But after I wrote that entry I got to thinking futher about what I really like. It's tough for me, because I've always been so sexually open and willing to try things, and a lot of them I've liked. So I'm digging down deep to pull out the things that I really like the most. The next thing after bondage that came to mind was water.

I guess I've always loved water. Growing up I lived at an apartment complex that had a pool...and I was there from sunrise til sunset. My mom said that by the time I was 3 I was comfortable in the water without those orange arm thingies. I just loved being in the water. I know I used to play with myself in the tub. I remember being like 10 and laying with my crotch under the faucet because it felt good.

I think the first time water became sensual/sexual for me was probably when I was like 18. I dated this punk rock boy named Pat. My god was that kid gorgous...like 6'5", spikey bleached blonde hair...just delicious. On our first date he took me to an arcade. One night at like midnight, for no reason he made the 30 minute commute to bring me flowers. And then there was the day we got the hotel room...

We were high. He had this bright green bud and I was totally tore up. So we're driving around and he's like "pull in there." I don't remember the name of the place...I think it's somewhere off Cicero Ave. There's an apple on their sign. I pulled in...and he went in. Comes back with a key. I was like "right on." When we opened the door to this room I couldn't fucking believe what I saw. Right off the bat I noticed that the ENTIRE room was carpeted. The floor, the ceiling [except for above the bed where the mirrors were], the walls. The whole room was covered with this thick brown and orange 70s style shag carpeting. Of course I noticed the mirrors on both the ceiling and the headboard next. And then the waterbed. And then the huge hot tub in the middle of the room. And then the cheesey porn music started playing in my head. It was the most fun room I'd ever seen.

I'm chillin on the waterbed while Pat turns on the water and pours in bubbles, against the rules, such a rebel punk boy he was. The tub gets all bubbly and then he undressed me and we slipped into the warm steamy water together. Up until then I hadn't showered with anyone. I'd never had sex in a pool or at the beach or anywhere besides a bed and a car really. He could have done anything he'd wanted to me in that hot tub. We listened to Green Day...and had a bubble fight, and made bubble clothes and acted silly. Not only did I discover my water fetish, but I also learned that being intimate doesn't mean you have to be serious. Of course we had sex in the hot tub, and of course it was amazing. But equally amazing is having someone wash your hair. Or rub a bar of soap across your skin. The way wet soapy skin feels rubbing together and the massaging effects of water do things to sex that nothing else can.

Water is amazingly erotic to me. Be it a bathtub or a shower or a pool or the rain. If you've seen the movie Secretary, that bathtub seen totally makes my panties wet. I would love to have someone put me in a huge tub of hot water like that and then just do everything for me. Shampoo my hair slowly and then rinse it. Carefully soap every inch of my body. Then condition my hair. Lather up my legs and shave them silky smooth. Keep going up between my legs and shave there clean as well, to make it soft for licking. And wash my face. Cup my cheeks in your hands and look at me, completely clean and natural. Rinse my hair and any lingering soap and then wrap me up in a huge fuzzy towel. Run your fingers through my wet hair, and watch a stray drop of water trickle down my neck. Hold me close so that I don't get cold while I'm drying. Eventually I'll let you unwrap me from my towel, all soft and dry and clean, and then beg you to get me dirty again. I can't think of a better excuse for a shower hehe

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Japanese Bondage [09 Jun 2004|10:45pm]
[ mood | excited ]

I have this fantasy about Japanese Bondage. I remember like 5 years ago, seeing a picture of this girl, completely naked, but totally bound with this silky looking rope. All these knots and twists of rope cris-crossed her breasts and arms and stomach and between her legs then all down her thighs and calves. It was absolutely breathtaking, how sensual and sexual her rope clad body was. I wanted to be bound like that.

Ever since I saw that picture I've fantasized about having someone skilled in Nawa Shibari [Japanese Bondage]. Let him [her] undress me completely, and start to work magic with ropes and knots. Stopping occasionally to caress or kiss or lick an exposed area of skin that catches interest, then return to the complicated knotting, slowly stripping me of my freedom while dressing me in rope. I'd love to watch the concentration on his [her] face while working to make me motionless. To feel occasional brushes of fingertips over my skin as the knots restrict me further. Then before tieing my legs together, slipping between my thighs to lick my pussy...arms and torso unable to move against the tight restrictions binding me. Making me cum once...twice...as I struggle to breathe deeply against the tight pattern of rope across my chest. As my breathing returns to normal, he [she] returns to work, slowly alternating knotting with trailing kisses down my legs. Then I am completely bound, all movement restricted. Mmmm...to feel him [her] caress my tied skin, brushing his [her] fingertips across his [her] handiwork. Just leave me be for awhile...so that I can fully enjoy my ropes, as they press against my skin, struggling to leave their marks. Then he [she] can slowly untie me. Undoing the long process, admiring the soft red lines that zig and zag up my skin from where the rope won it's battle. As I begin to regain my freedom from that which restricted me from reciprocating the touches and kisses of my lover, we devour one another in a sea of flailing limbs.

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hahahahahahahahaha [09 Jun 2004|01:59pm]
[ mood | nerdy ]

like i didn't already know this...

shes_yr_cocaine's LJ stalker is metallicfatguy!
metallicfatguy is stalking you because you said something bad about them on your LJ. They are also deluded!

LiveJournal Username:

LJ Stalker Finder
From Go-Quiz.com

i'm sure by saying something "bad" they mean "bad" as in dirty...tehehe ::grin::
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bwahahaha horoscope [09 Jun 2004|03:18am]
[ mood | mischievous ]

This is my horoscope for today:

You're feeling a lot more emotional, and a bit unnerved by it. Don't panic. You're not losing your edge. Allow those feelings to be coaxed out by a certain someone.

A bit unnderved indeed. I much prefer to entertain the concept of being emotionally unavaiable or incapible, therefore making most relationships, and my life flow much more smoothly. But at least I'm not losing my edge. It's all over then if I turn into a sappy kitten from my current sex kitten state.

And as for this whole "certain someone," aparently that's a position not currently filled in my life. For those interested in applying for the job, please fill out the following application, comment and paste it there, and you will be contacted shortly. ::grin::

"Certain Someone" Application
-Do I like you?:
-Do you get on my nerves?:
-Could I spend more than an hour with you and not want to kill you?:
-Do you like good music?:
-Are you accepting of the fact that I can be...?: a nympho; a psycho; a bitch; a sex kitten; a girly girl; high-maintenence; whiney, and; independent.

hahaha bedtime for me. night kiddies ;)
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honesty is always the best policy [08 Jun 2004|03:34pm]
[ mood | amused ]

Had to share this snippit of conversation because it's just too damn funny to pass up.

So I'm sitting here and gullable boytoy messages me. Mind you, this is the same gullable boy whom I convinced to buy me a $60 sex toy just by promising him I'd let him watch me use it.
Anyway...he messages me and asks me about my weekend. I say I had a blast, it was fun. Offered absolutly no details of what took place, as this poor boy thinks that for the most part I'm just about the sweetest, innocent girl to walk the planet. So he asks "what all did you do up there?"

::insert terribly naughty alter-ego apperance::

Me: Do you really want to know?

Him: yeah unless u really don't wanna tell me

Me: played video games, smoked lots of pot, and had sex with a girl

Him: awsome

Him: sounds like a good weekend to me

Him: ;-) well except the pot for me at least

Me: yea it was fun

Him: was it your first time with a girl?

Me: no O:-)

Him: lol I still see those horns sweetie

Him: ok we prolly shouldn't talk about it tho..at least while at work....don't wanna be walkin around with a hard on in the office

Me: ohhhh...it's better than just talking. there's pictures 100+ pictures hahaha

Him: really?????

Me: indeed

Him: *imagination is startin already*

Okay...so I didn't mention that sex with a girl also included sex with her soon-to-be husband. I just don't think the poor boy could deal with that. He's a little too straight-edge. It did feel kind of liberating to admit what I ran up to Madison for the weekend for though. Maybe I'll tell some other people too tehehe.

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My Trading Card [08 Jun 2004|03:18pm]
[ mood | silly ]

Make sure you all get one hehehe...wouldn't want to disapoint my fans. Bring a copy when you see me in person and I'll even autograph it ::giggle::
clicky clicky...you know you wanna look ;)Collapse )

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Boy I think you're confused, I'm not Persephone... [08 Jun 2004|03:21am]
[ mood | exhausted ]

My alter-ego ran off to Madison this weekend to engage in the gluttonous intake of sex and pot smoking with metallicfatguy & devious_bbw. She's not offering up any details about the weekend other than a disk of 100+ pictures documenting the events that took place, and saying that "a good time was had by all." For those extremely curious [and a bit lucky], some of the pictures are available at bold_strokes. Some more of them may surface eventually. Rumor has it that there may have been some video footage taken as well.

June 2004 is definitely in the running for being the most sextastic month my alter-ego has ever seen, especially with the potential of another lj-er coming up for some fun soon.
a picture is worth 1000 wordsCollapse )

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update time [02 Jun 2004|03:48pm]
so yea. my vacation was eh to say the least. not quite what i was hoping for, but what can ya do yanno?

luckily, i'm most likely going on another lil mini-vaca this weekend, up to lovely madison, my most favorite city in the midwest. if all goes well there will be lots of pictures and whatnot (scandalous) of course, to share with everyone, since i'm going up there to visit devious_bbw and metallicfatguy. good times indeed :)

so yes...that is the plan. now i'm off to take my chubby ass to the gym so i can run on the elliptical machine until my fat legs give out.

oh...i'm currently accepting donations to buy myself a much wanted new toy.

i promise if you donate to my fund, i'll take special pictures of me (and it) just for you! :D

that is all :)

EDIT: shit...i've decided i'll even let you watch me use it, in person, if you happen to live close enough and are willing to donate. so eh eh...whaddya say jim....yr gonna be up here soooooooon :D :D :D

okay. that really is all now.

EDIT #2: Since posting this earlier, I convinced one of my local boy toys to shell out $60 for me muahahahaha. Silly spineless boys. Anyway...since I no longer need donations to buy that new toy i wanted, i figure next on the list should be a digi camera. So, again...anyone that wants to donate to my cause, I promise I'll find a worthwhile way to repay you...like personal photos...c'mon, you know you wanna pitch in ;) hehehe =D help a camera whore without a camera out!
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[28 May 2004|07:01pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]

i'm leaving for vacation at the ass crack of dawn tomorrow morning so just wanted to let everyone know that i won't be around for a few days. have a safe and enjoyable weekend. don't do anything i wouldn't ;)
*kiss kiss*

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random ranting [26 May 2004|05:28pm]
[ mood | irritated ]

i'm kinda irritated. i applied to a few different rating type communities a few days ago and none of them have stamped me yet. what's the holdup?? i need something to do with all this time i have on my hands which having no school and no job has given me lately. la de da.

i'm going camping this weekend so i won't be around for a couple of days. looking way forward to spending some time in the woods, hearing good music, drinking and getting stoned. yes yes...that's my idea of a good time. and the icing on the cake is that the ex will be down there as well. didn't find that out until today. but i can't say i'm not glad...cause nothing beats being all drunk and stoned and fucking in a tent. it will be weird being down at this festival but not being down there with him though, as the past two years we went together. he's stupid, but i love him. it's sad...but we almost get along better when we're not together. since break up (about 3 weeks ago) we've hung out twice and talked more than normal. in the two times that we hung out, things were totally normal and not unlike us being a couple, except we're not. and if that's what it takes for us to get along, not having some label on what we are, then so be it cause labels are stupid anyway. so =P

anyway...i'm done ranting. just thought i'd write a lil something in here since i spend most of my time writing real entries in my other lj (on_the_boundary) if you wanna read that too...just comment and i'll add ya on over there, since it's friends only :D

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song trivia [17 May 2004|03:03pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

On your current playlist, hit shuffle and pick the first twenty songs on the list (no matter how cheesy or embarrassing), and write down your favourite line of the song. Try to avoid putting the song title in the line. Then, have your friends comment and see if they know the songs.
-okay..i don't use my computer to listen to music so i'm just gonna pick stuff at random and you guess :D
i'll be seriously impressed with anyone that gets more than half of them...so try yr hardest!!

1. "I had to phone someone so I picked on you...hey that's far out..."

2. "you call it madnesss, you say it's, running away with me..." (i will personally reward anyone who gets this one right)

3. "nobody else, is slipping the blade in the marmalade..."

4. "just drop off the key lee, and get yrself free..."

5. "how can you look at me as if i was just another one of your deals..."

6. "rip out the binding and tear the glue..."

7. "how'd you get so desperate, how'd you stay alive..."

8. "it's 3 oclock we're driving in your car..."

9. "have you seen my wig around, i feel naked without it..."

10. "take it easy baby, make it last all night..."

11. "she was a simple girl without much to say...so one day she up and left her dreary home..."

12. "just one drink and i fall down drunk..."

13. "i'm the wickedest witch in the whole wide world, the grooviest, ghouliest, go-go girl..."

14. "is this how it happens? is this how it feels? is this how a star falls?"

15. "and when she kisses me it tasted like cinnamon, and her skin smells of cider and rose"

16. "open the basket, listen to the flute play..."

17. "boys in the girl's room, girls in the men's room..."

18. "feminist, dyke, whore.."

19. "when i was down, came to me, and promised to always be, by my side..."

20. "i don't know how i bent, what you said, to what i believe you meant"

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[16 May 2004|07:54pm]
[ mood | amused ]

taking new pictures tonight. i'm totally excited. i love hanging out with jake. our little photoshoots are always a good time. so i'll have new pictures soon hurray! :D

in other news, a few people have requested to know the girl behind the pictures. since my personal journal is friends only anyway, i figure i'll give you all the name, and then you can comment there and i will consider adding you as a friend, so long as you give me a good reason to :D so, having said that, if you're one of those interested people, check out on_the_boundary. that's where you'll find me.

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[14 May 2004|10:35am]
[ mood | mellow ]

jake sent me the new pics he took of me last night. the only problem is they're huge files because he didn't resize them first, so they take like 45 minutes to an hour per set of 6 pictures. but...i can deal with that, since he was kind enough to take, and send them to me :) he offered to take some more this weekend if i want to get together. we'll see...as much as i like the pictures and hanging out with him...i do have to keep in mind that he's my ex and he's my ex for a reason. however, he is my ex with a digital camera, who i'm still physically attrated to and who thinks that i'm the sexiest bitch on the planet. so soaking up all his attention is fun. anyway...that means new pics for me to share :D

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